Here’s Why They Won’t Publish What I Have to Say


When I finished my PhD one of my supervisors made a casual remark that I should write up the findings of my thesis for a wider market, make it into a sort of  ‘academic study brought down to earth’. I’m doing this in a way by throwing its findings around like confetti in my blogs and articles but maybe I will tie up all up in a book some day.

In the meantime I was keen to share my findings with the academic community. I was confident that fellow academics would find its conclusions as exciting as I did! Well, maybe they would if they ever got the chance to see them, but they never did.

Does one size really fit all?

My conclusions apparently didn’t fit the expectations of the academic publishing system, a system that seems to think that it has fundamentally got the puzzle of life figured out already. So the very way in which you have to submit your research findings is geared up to accept only what it deems acceptable within its prevailing paradigm. I probably didn’t ‘honour’ and ‘celebrate’ enough diversity or otherwise patronise people sufficiently. All I know is, if you’re trying to say anything different, there is no platform. You either give them more of the same claptrap to tickle their collective ego or you’re ostracized.

So, it’s not that I’ve had rejections per se, it’s that the funnel open to new knowledge is so pathetically narrow. You have to close yourself down to squeeze through its rigid walls. I naively went into academia thinking I’d find open-mindedness, curiosity and a passion for knowledge and understanding. What I found was terrifying conformity, slavish adherence to a single paradigm and a closed-minded arrogance that thought it knew it all.

This sounds like judgment and criticism and that’s regrettable. I do understand how wedded people are to their way of thinking, whether its members of the same family, or religion, or institution. Most people’s minds will never reach beyond the level of convention, the mentality that accepts and buys into whatever is indoctrinated into it. Then again, most people are not claiming to be ‘authorities’, they are not responsible for the kind of ‘knowledge’ that trickles down into the popular culture and comes to be accepted as fact.

The truth of the matter is…

Perhaps there is a special obligation on these academics, these so-called seekers of knowledge to question their paradigms, to examine their beliefs, to see the partiality of their thinking, to be more open to alternative perspectives, to be more humble in their approach to ‘truth’.

I never realised, after all my years of study and research, that I would be shut down and shut up if I didn’t follow the sheep. Now I get it that you have to be very easily identifiable to get a place at the table. You have to be ultra ‘liberal’ and worship at the feet of diversity, pluralism, multi-culturalism, feminism and all the other ‘isms’ that so preoccupy the academic elite. This fraternity denies that there is any abiding knowledge to be had in the world. All knowledge is seen as relative - relative to its culture, its historical time-setting etc. Rather than seeing this way of looking at things as just one perspective among many, they adhere to their philosophy of relativity as the truth. So, all knowledge is relative except theirs. This is why they can go around looking so smug and superior, even when their blindness to this inherent contradiction is lamentable.

My experience of academics is that they have become caricatures of themselves. They all believe the same things, say the same things with the same language and jump on the same bandwagons towards a very partial understanding of the world.

Actually, I’m glad they won’t publish me. I don’t want to be part of the system but part of the solution to it!

Feel to Heal


Throughout our lives we unconsciously recoil against the world. We tense and contract our bodies in an attempt to push it away, to isolate ourselves from the scary parts of life. In resisting our feelings, we deny them and swallow them back, causing layer upon layer to settle within us and then freeze over. These painful feelings have not been allowed to complete their Gestalt and flow naturally through us. Over the years these frozen wastelands constrict our bodies and shut down our life force. They become the painbody that we carry around with us.

We live in our heads and treat the body like an inconvenient appendage that has to be fed and watered. This is a very unloving way to live and causes a mind/body split in us that makes us feel very scattered and anxious. The loving thing to do is to begin to heal the split by giving your body some much-needed attention. The body houses great wisdom if we just tune into it. Then we discover where we’ve stashed our unwanted feelings and begin to feel them and then release them.

Some cultures have long acknowledged the operation of subtle energy systems within us. In India the chakra system describes swirling vortices of energy in different parts of the body that emit and receive their own frequency of vibration. When chakras are blocked with emotional debris, so is the free flow of vital energy through the system. Whatever is blocked physically is blocked energetically and vice versa. All parts of the body can be the site of Aha moments but the most common places are the throat, the solar plexus, the gut and the heart.
When you explore your own emotions, you find out where you store your painbody and learn to dissolve it:

“I have learned how to dissolve and evaporate the knots of fear and frustration in my solar plexus and head”
— (S.L. client)

The heart chakra’s value is universal love and when this channel is clear, mind and body are connected and transcended. Aha moments sensed in the heart can bring wholeness and peace:

“I feel it in my heart. It’s physical. I feel whole and at peace with myself. I’m not sure I can describe it any better than that”.
— (K. R. client)

It is from the heart that we come to know about love and how powerful it is. We can be whole-hearted about life only when we tune into the heart and feel for the passions and values that are most important to us. The most loving thing we can do for ourselves is to discover our unique life purpose, what is most deeply valuable for us to live a fulfilling life. And the heart is much stronger than the head, having its own ‘brain’ and an electromagnetic field about 60 times greater than the brain in amplitude. The heart’s energy permeates every cell in the body so it is a much more reliable guidance system than the thinking, monkey mind. So tune into your feelings – accept them, feel them, release the ones that cause you pain and get excited – get very excited - about the ones that serve your life purpose!


Sit down and tune in to what’s happening inside. Think about what is deeply important to you at this juncture of your life. Draw a picture. Use words. Find metaphors.

Now write a list of your values and passions. Make sure they are your values and nobody else’s. As you contemplate each one, close your eyes and breathe it into your body. Check for feelings of excitement, motivation. Re-write your list in order of priority. Your body will tell you which values to prioritize.

Be Present in Your Life


Ideas of mindfulness, presence and being in the ‘now’ are making their way into our collective consciousness. These are all ways of saying that, in becoming deeply connected to this moment in time, we can be transported to a place that is not of time, not of this material word, a timeless dimension of reality, the eternal Now.

This eternal realm can only be entered into in the presenting moment but our thoughts make sure that the doors to this perception remain firmly closed.Thinking keeps us locked into the mind instead of into our present experience of life. Being lost in thought is the way the ego shuts us off from our true nature. It slams us behind an ego wall to face a life sentence of the mindless repetition of largely useless thoughts; illusory thoughts in the illusory world of a prison in which we have voluntarily incarcerated ourselves. Mental babble is not real. The only reality is that which is presenting itself to you in every moment of your life. So WAKE UP to it!

Do you see that living in the mind is living in the past? The only true thing we can think about the past is that it is not here. To think about it at all is therefore to think of illusions and to upset old emotions. When we picture the past or anticipate the future, the mind is actually closed, asleep to anything real. While you are lost in the mind, time-travelling between regrets of the past and fears for the future, you are not actually alive, you are just replaying old mind games and feeling old feelings. You are living an inauthentic life dominated by an ego mind, a relic of the past. You are not free to even notice, never mind experience the reality of life because you are coming from this false sense of self.

You are none other than Consciousness itself but you have blinded yourself to this knowledge by becoming hijacked and imprisoned by this false self. It has coiled itself around you like a snake, taking what was infinite and making it smaller and smaller, more and more constricted. And when this snake has you in its vice-like grip it then hypnotises you into believing that you are separate. It may tell you that you are free, because we’re always told we should be grateful for our freedoms, but you are not free. The ego snake has you in its clutches, whispering warning signs in your ear about how unsafe the world is, how you must be in control, how there is nothing to love and everything to fear – and so you feel anxious.

Fear is the opposite of love. When we release fear, love automatically begins to shine in us. It is madness to think your thoughts have any power over you, unless you let them. Thinking is no more than a tiny aspect of the totality of Consciousness, the totality of who you really are. So stop letting thinking run your life. All you have to do is to be vigilant for ego thoughts and realize that you have given your thoughts all the meaning they have for you. When the ego thought arises, choose again. Choose to come out of your head and into the now moment of your life. Choose love, not fear. There is beauty in living in the here-and-now where there is no illusory past or future. And from an intuitive sense of Being, way beyond the ego mind, come joy and bliss:

“In the moment, there is nothing to fear – no memories, no anxieties. And as I rest in the moment, a good feeling settles on me, then joy, then bliss”
— (M.L., client)

Presence Exercise

Think of a flower, a tree, a mountain, a river; they are all simply here, being present. You can be too. All you need do is sink into whatever is arising in your body and placing all your attention there, with no thought.

Within this background of presence, these are the steps to take. Let’s use an example of a common negative emotion, anxiety. Low-level anxiety plagues many people today.

1. Whenever you experience anxiety, become very present with it, settle in to it. Stay OUT of your head, do not use language or images, just fully feel it in your body.

2. Feel, acknowledge and confess the feeling. Let it reveal itself. What are you really anxious about? If you can identify it, acknowledge it, let it express, it dissolves very quickly. Confess it out loud to God or to anything in your environment, even if it’s a plant on your windowsill. Saying things aloud helps you understand them and lets them begin to wash through you.

“I think therefore I am…screwed”

Rodin's The Thinker

Rodin's The Thinker

At your core is a beautiful pearl, shimmering, iridescent and vibrating love. You were born like this but the pearl soon got buried under the weight of thought. You were taught that the best thing you can do is to think. The thinking mind has been prized for centuries as the apex of intelligence, the pinnacle of consciousness. And so the precious pearl got buried under the weight of thoughts, ideas and belief systems. From birth your mind has been filled with stories about who you are and what the world is. A steady drip of stories gradually turned into a tidal wave of thinking that engulfed your mind. And now it spews a constant tsunami of useless, second-hand thoughts. Under their weight the pearl has drowned. It is lying at the bottom of the ocean of your mind, laid to rest for all eternity unless you WAKE UP.

You are not your thoughts. Thinking has a very important place in our psyches and is fine to use it when the occasion arises. The problem is that we are thinking all the time. It is the world’s number 1 addiction. We have been brainwashed into believing that, as Descartes famously proclaimed: “I think therefore I am”. It would be more apt to say: “I think therefore I am…screwed”. Thoughts turn into beliefs, i.e. just thoughts that you keep thinking. Most of these repetitive thoughts have taken refuge underground in your mind and now run the show that you call your life without your knowledge. You identify with your beliefs as if they had an objective reality. They do not. They are simply habits of an uncontrolled mind.

Spend just one day being aware of your thoughts as they arise. Notice the busyness of your mind and see how it teams with unexamined thinking, stinking detritus from the outside world that you’ve taken on board, flooding your mind with useless ideas. Look for one single belief that is truly yours, one idea that didn’t come from the outside world. You will soon discover that your mind is not your own. It has become a prison you created by listening to other peoples’ thoughts. The way out of the prison is lit by Aha moments of insight.

Aha moments arise in a quiet mind, a still mind that is not bothered by thoughts. This doesn’t have to be hours of meditation but conscious, regular gaps in thinking. People have huge Aha moments when they mind the gap, when they surrender their thoughts. They consciously impose a small opening between thoughts in which insight can emerge. If you sit in a space of “don’t know” mind you begin to clear the detritus, giving space for a wiser, more intuitive place within you to make its voice heard.

So don’t be a great thinker, be a gap-maker. Be present in the moment and connect to what is happening in your life and not in your head. You will realize that there is a much greater intelligence than your thinking mind awaiting your attention. And when you connect to this higher, interconnected wisdom, you will intuit the re-emergence of the pearl of love that you are.

Material Aha Moments (2)



This Gestalt picture is an example of how we habitually see what we expect to see. What do you see?

Your answer to this question reveals a lot about your habits of mind. When given only partial information, we fill in the blanks without thinking. When presented with anything in the outside world, subconscious and automatic processes impel us to see it as a whole so that our world seems coherent and logical. Good idea but we take it to far.

This organization of what we see is a speciality of the left-brain hemisphere. This slave brain classifies experience and pigeonholes it like in no time. It glances at something — a thought, an object, a person, runs it through its databases at the speed of light, finds a vague facsimile of that thing and promptly files the thing away under the same heading, telling you it’s understood it, before belting on to the next thing.

But you haven’t understood it because you’ve glossed over whatever is arising in your life. When you prematurely dismiss your experience by classifying it before it even lands in your consciousness, you’re not connected to your experience you’re not involved in your life. You might as well not be having your experience because you’re dead to it.

Your ego has won again by drawing a dark veil between you and the present moment. Instead of being free to act, all you do is unconsciously re-act, meaning you’re constantly ‘living’ in the past. Entirely under the radar of awareness, you perceive an outline of some thing or some one and fill in the blanks to suit your little ego self. You’ve projected what you want to see, what you’ve always seen, onto what’s not, in reality, there. You’ve reacted without the tiniest gap in time to look again at the object or the situation or the person.

The power of now, mindfulness, being in the present moment and other ways of saying it all mean the same thing. We must mind the gap. We must intentionally impose a moment of silence in the mind to truly engage with whatever is presenting itself to our awareness.
Material Aha moments show how we only look at something from one point of view and we gloss over our experience as if we’ve seen it all before. It is by intervening in the constant stream of thinking that we stop these habits of mind that dominate our experience.

We can look at life as though we’ve seen it all before, i.e. not looking, or we can look at it afresh in every moment, with a little gap in thinking and an open, receptive mind. The first path is the road to being dictated to by your ego, the other is the road to aliveness and connection.